No 'war stories' please!!
My soul knows the depths of desperation of which you speak. There was a time in my life that I never envisioned myself living any way but a prisoner to the drug and the deep emptiness that filled my whole. Thankfully I was directed to the people that showed me the way out. The greatest thing I’ve ever done for myself was follow. ❤️🩹❤️🩹We do recover!
What started me and led me into this dark journey of addiction id say is my childhood, also the fact I always struggled with depression and my self worth. I have never felt like I was important or that I mattered. And that everyone that ever mattered to me will leave me in the end so I think I shielded myself with self medicating to block the pain and sorrow I felt for myself wich is a poor excuse. I started around 13 smoking weed with my older siblings and then one day I found my father's Xanax that was my first true addiction I loved the feeling that gave me I felt invincible, like a better me. I got in trouble with the law from using drugs came home from jail and had my first child at 18. I never felt like I was a good father and filled that void with drugs which was the most selfish act I could have done. I may have had another child with the same woman and recently she passed to this addiction and I am still battling with this life and my son's need me now more then ever. The only thing I'm thankful for from all this is that I met the love of my life someone who showed me that I could be a better person. I will not let this be it for us we will over come this
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, United States